A morning in late May, when it’s too early
yet to rise and too late for dreaming
I pull on shoes and walk out onto
the street crammed with memories.
They dagger me with their eyes.
And though I do not see them
they come on a cooling breeze
through my shirt, feeling for the heart.
I need then not to remember, or
hunger for the tick of blood:
I want to live as my smallest self
with the sorrow of rocks and the joy
of grasses, unbothered by today.
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[I spent my 42nd birthday (last Friday) in Blackall, a town that has become part of of my personal mythology. It was the (very) early start, which triggered the opening lines of this poem, and the knowledge that out there, under the biggest sky imaginable, I am invisible, that gave me its ending.]